Sometimes when I am reading others' blogs I find myself caught in an illusion. You people have some shiny, beautiful lives out there. I notice that sometimes I am wishing I could be on top of everything and post blogs more often about the wonderful perfect life I lead here with my little family. But let's face it, that is not reality. And I know no one is out there having a perfect life, or even pretending to have one either. But, sometimes, it is so easy to imagine everyone saying the perfect things to their kids, taking them on super fun outings, spending days on end in the sunlight relaxing with their children at their knees...HA! If only..Life with kids is no dreamland. And I don't know why I seem so set on having a perfect life. There is no such thing. I need to just enjoy the time I spend with my kids. Even if it is 4 in the morning and I have to work the next day. I guess I need to just appreciate the joyous moments and realize the hard times will pass before long. It's funny because it seems like one day is heaven and the next is extremely challenging(Avery-cough-terrible twos-cough, cough). Maybe I'll be one of those moms who handles teen years better than terrible two to three years. Who knows. I do know that I am LOVING having a baby again. Keira is so sweet and innocent. She is my precious little ball of joy. Even if she doesn't sleep through the night every night, it doesn't matter. Little babies are just so fun. Anyway, Avery does do some really cute stuff, too. I love her to pieces. Right now she is obcessed with The Little Mermaid. She could watch it all day, I think. I have to limit her TV these days so she doesn't become a TV zombie. I love how I am becomming able to really communicate with Avery, too. She understands so much now. And to be honest, it's funny how seeing other moms in my same stage in life helps me so much. I see them deal with whining and it strengthens me somehow. I know it sounds totally mean, but I kind of like seeing other moms struggle with their kids because it means I'm not alone in dealing with tantrums, whining, etc. There is a way to deal with it. And seeing how other moms deal with it gives me ideas. Well, motherhood for me has been a real roller coaster. But, I am so grateful for all it is teaching me. I know I love my babies and need to enjoy them while they are small. I know, I know! Everyone tells me this time flies by. Here are a few random park pics I thought you might like so you can get a little taste of our family outings.
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I totally hear you Heather...:) It's not always roses raising these little ones. It definately has it's challenges, but I think you are totally right. We need to some how stop and smell the roses..Tonight a lady from the ward called me and asked me to give a little 2 minute talk in church about how I find joy in motherhood. Maybe not the day to ask me to do that..I couldn't get Jacob to do anything today. This child of mine is living in a dream half the time...Totally living in the right side of his brain. Don't get me wrong, that's his totally creative side. Put him in front of the piano and he does amazing, but put a list of chores in front of him and he draws a blank..
I guess after reflecting today I thought to myself...This is who Jacob is and I need to embrace all of the talents that he has and just love this boy of mine...He is such a good boy....
Anyway....I didn't mean to go off, but I totally have to agree with you about mothering..Not an easy job, but......
Well, let's just leave it at that.....Not an easy job..:)
Love you Heather...hang in there...Call me anytime. Miss your little family..
Amazingly beautiful little girls...They are just adorable by the way.........
Ah...but to me you do have the perfect life. :) And if not a perfect family, you have a beautiful family! I LOVE love LOVE those pictures. If it makes you feel any better, my kids stress me out too, but I LOVE them to death!
Heather I love to read your comments. I know first handed what you feel, like you mentioned, time goes by so fast and you wonder what happened to those darling little babies you once held in your arms. If only I could relive just one day again, just to feel what I felt then instead of relying on a memory. Wow,it was only yesterday that I cradled my babies.
Love your honesty. You're not alone. I also love seeing parents struggle. Especially running down the isle in church with their hand covering the kids mouth as they are screaming and trying to slide out of their parents arms.
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