So, I thought I would talk about my thoughts of motherhood so far. Brian can post a blog of his own describing his thoughts--which differ a little from my own. I've decided being a mother is the
best job EVER! Sleepless nights, limited free time, dirty diapers all day long, crying spells, and depleted funds--let the party begin! In sooth, it is definitely not "the easy life;" however, all of the many, many chores of motherhood are all a small price to pay for our precious baby.
It just doesn't make sense though, I KNOW! Before I was a mother, I was dreading those costs I mentioned above. I thought having a newborn would be cool--mostly because that's what everyone says-- but I thought I would be annoyed that I had to get up in the night, disappointed about my limited free time, etc. I truly thought I would feel more overwhelmed with it all. You may be wondering why I decided to get pregnant in the first place. To be honest, I did have a little bit of a bleak outlook on life as a mother. I just didn't get it. How could mom's enjoy their jobs with screaming babies, rebellious teenagers, and stubborn toddlers? It just did not make logical sense to me. My mom would try to tell me how awesome it is to have kids
of your own. She would say that kids aren't annoying when they do those teeth clenching behaviors you experience in sacrament meeting--
when they are your own. And I would incredulously ask her: how could that be true? To be completely honest
(maybe a little too honest for a blog post), I didn't really like kids before I had Avery. Now is the time you can really be upset with me. Why would I have a baby and not even like kids? My Aunt Robyn, my mom's sister, had a little something to do with it. She had a similar opinion of kids when she was my age. Just like me she didn't like kids all that much. Call us crazy. When my mom was a child, she was always the one who would relish her time playing with little kids/babies, and my aunt never really saw why that was so fun for her. She didn't get it either. But now my Aunt Robyn has
7 children! She said that once she started having kids of her own, she was finally able to see how amazingly cool children really are. And now I, too, view children in a different light. I don't think I'll have 7, but I do want more than just a couple more. Some of you seasoned mothers reading this blog of mine may be thinking I'm a little naive about it all, and you may be right. I mean, I have only been a mother for about 6 weeks now. I
don't really know what it will be like in the future, but I am excited for it, nonetheless.
Avery's awake time is so much fun these days! Well, unless she is crying and that's not too fun. She is more excited to see her mom and dad now and has even begun smiling a tiny bit. We just need to try to capture it on film! She usually will smile a little when I come in her room in the morning to feed her. The above and below pictures are a good representation of her typical awake time expressions.
So, I thought I would talk about my thoughts of motherhood so far. Brian can post a blog of his own describing his thoughts--which differ a little from my own. I've decided being a mother is the best job EVER! Sleepless nights, limited free time, dirty diapers all day long, crying spells, and depleted funds--let the party begin! In sooth, it is definitely not "the easy life;" however, all of the many, many chores of motherhood are all a small price to pay for our precious baby. It just doesn't make sense though, I KNOW! Before I was a mother, I was dreading those costs I mentioned above. I thought having a newborn would be cool--mostly because that's what everyone says-- but I thought I would be annoyed that I had to get up in the night, disappointed about my limited free time, etc. I truly thought I would feel more overwhelmed with it all. You may be wondering why I decided to get pregnant in the first place. To be honest, I did have a little bit of a bleak outlook on life as a mother. I just didn't get it. How could mom's enjoy their jobs with screaming babies, rebellious teenagers, and stubborn toddlers? It just did not make logical sense to me. My mom would try to tell me how awesome it is to have kids of your own. She would say that kids aren't annoying when they do those teeth clenching behaviors you experience in sacrament meeting--when they are your own. And I would incredulously ask her: how could that be true? To be completely honest (maybe a little too honest for a blog post), I didn't really like kids before I had Avery. Now is the time you can really be upset with me. Why would I have a baby and not even like kids? My Aunt Robyn, my mom's sister, had a little something to do with it. She had a similar opinion of kids when she was my age. Just like me she didn't like kids all that much. Call us crazy. When my mom was a child, she was always the one who would relish her time playing with little kids/babies, and my aunt never really saw why that was so fun for her. She didn't get it either. But now my Aunt Robyn has 7 children! She said that once she started having kids of her own, she was finally able to see how amazingly cool children really are. And now I, too, view children in a different light. I don't think I'll have 7, but I do want more than just a couple more. Some of you seasoned mothers reading this blog of mine may be thinking I'm a little naive about it all, and you may be right. I mean, I have only been a mother for about 6 weeks now. I don't really know what it will be like in the future, but I am excited for it, nonetheless.
Avery's awake time is so much fun these days! Well, unless she is crying and that's not too fun. She is more excited to see her mom and dad now and has even begun smiling a tiny bit. We just need to try to capture it on film! She usually will smile a little when I come in her room in the morning to feed her. The above and below pictures are a good representation of her typical awake time expressions.
5 comments:
She is SO beautiful!
I can't wait to meet her. I know Jordan talks of coming to visit you guys many times and I hope it happens.
I hear you on the Mom talk. And totally agree. I was never one to NOT want kids, I've been the aunt that comes running when asked to babysit my nieces or nephews, but I was always so anxious to leave at the end of the night. I was dreading the crying spells and having to discipline and handle hard moments, but then when Camryn came along, it all changed. Don't get me wrong there are still hard moments and sometimes I have to leave the room for a minute, but yesterday in Sacrament Meeting, she was one of those babies that stands in the pew yelling at the people behind us. :] She saw Jordan up on the stand blessing the Sacrament and in the middle of the prayer starts giggling and laughing. I couldn't get her to be quiet! But I couldn't be mad! I just had to smile and let her be a kid. :] Jordan's taught me how to be patient with her and love her in spite of those times when I wanna bite my lip and pretend she's not mine.
Glad you're enjoying motherhood and welcome to the club! :]
She is so cute and definately getting bigger already! CUTE!
So you are saying that you are going to have SEVEN kids huh?! haha! I'm glad you are loving motherhood, I know it changes a ton when they are your own... my little neices could do NO wrong in my eyes!
I am so glad you are enjoying this time. It was good to read your thoughts. I don't dread the kid thing in general, but the big changes that occur with an infant. Your post made me feel better about it.
Hey Heather....
Loved hearing about your feelings about being a mother. I remember after I had Jacob I had a really hard time transitioning into motherhood. It was a little hard on me. I wasn't used to sleeping around the house when the baby was sleeping. It took some adjusting. I do remember those long nights with my kids and now that I think back on it, it was really precious time spent with them. Just you and the baby. You can never get that back.
Baby Avery is so beautiful.. Hope you guys are doing well. Love you,
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